Numb PT. 2

Yeah

I haven't spoke about these feelings and I think I need to

I see people say they're happy, but their smile is see-through

I hear people say they love me, but I don't believe you

That's just what happens when the one that kept you living leaves you

See, I'm just scared I'll never love again

Why can't you put it past us and love me for who I am?

I'm startin' to feel like I've been gettin' closer to my sins

And this devil on my shoulder is the only that lives, but

There was times I would feel too deep, I would start to panic

And the people I gave my all to would take advantage

See, you called me crazy, but I pick up every time it rings

When you say that you hate me, I just don't understand it

Maybe I'm too damaged, maybe I'm too broken

Maybe I'm losin' myself or maybe I'm just hopeless

It's like we live inside a world where we can't show emotions

Like the ones that hurt us most are who we hold the closest (are who we hold the closest)

And I just feel like there's nowhere else to run (nowhere else to run)

I'm scared of seein' mirrors 'cause I hate who I become (I hate who I become)

I can never find a reason why I'm just so hard to love

But I can find a thousand reasons why I'm loadin' up this gun, look

These days I need to be alone, but I hate bein' lonely (I hate bein' lonely)

And I hate the new me, but I don't miss the old me

Still damaged by the empty love you tried to show me

'Cause I wasn't the only one, it was your one and only

And my family don't look at me the same

They look at me like we don't share the same blood in our veins

They look at me like I'm different when they're the ones who changed, or

Maybe I was too distant, too stuck in my ways (Too stuck in my ways), fuck

I hope God hears me, no one's prayin' for me

Your eyes tell me everything you're scared of sayin' to me

My heart is growin' cold, but you would never know

I learned to love these scars by forgivin' those who gave 'em to me

Certain people will never get who I am (never get who I am)

Sometimes you have to listen to silence to understand (silence to understand)

Wore my heart on my sleeve and I put my life in your hands

Did all I could, you still made me feel like less than a man (made me feel like less than a man)

We always seem to run from those that love us the most

We never open up because we're scared to get close

We runnin' from the past and

We numb ourselves, hopin' that it last 'cause

You left me when I needed you most

I said, we always seem to run from those that love us the most

We never open up because we're scared to get close

We runnin' from the past and

We numb ourselves, hopin' that it last

We just hopin' that it last (hopin' that it last)