Pain

Although I walk through the valley of the shadow of death

I fear no man but God as I take my last breath

Used to beg them to stay and they'd just ask me to leave

You don't know what strugglin means until they shatter your dreams

Keep moving, no matter if them fuckers wanna doubt you nigga

Never been fed with a silver spoon, what about you nigga?

From the craddle to my motherfuckin' grave bitch

Heard my momma cryin' homie, I ain't been the same since

Blue skies turnin' white, theirs blood on the pavement

And all they ever ask me is "Phora how did you make it?"

Not "where did you come from?" or "tell me your story"

Theirs a difference between cats who want something from and for me

But I ain't trippin, they tellin me to settle down

Aha but i ain't settlin' for nothin'

And the people i hung around would just let me down

Eventually I was the only one i trusted

Real talk, I try not to show emotion

Alot of shit inside me i won't put out in the open

I hope i never snap, Lord knows that I'm destined for greatness

But those niggas keep testin my patience, I got

Pain in my heart, tryna not to let it show

They ask me if I'm ready, I never said no way

But you really never know

I just close my eyes and imagine

And just try to fly away

Aiming for tomorrow but we dying by the day

I'll be the first one to say i cry I ain't ashamed

They keep tellin me to smile but yo I'm tryna find a way

Losing touch to myself tears droppin to the pavement

Honestly I don't know how much longer i can take it

And I know how it feels to lose all everyone that you love

And start question the one up above

Like why do all the good people gotta die

And why these young kids victim to a homicide

I don't know but I'm still searchin for the answers

Haven't smoked since my grandfather died from cancer

So don't take offense when I don't hit the blunt with you

Cause theirs a reason, it don't mean that I don't fuck wit you

All It means is that you don't know what I'm going through

Don't ask to talk about it, its not something that I'm open to

Behind every smile is a number of tears, told myself that i have nothing to fear

But little did i know when you keep all that pain inside

You'll be your own worst enemy til the day you die

Pain in my heart, tryna not to let it show

They ask me if I'm ready, I never said no way

But you really never know