Old Friends

Walking outside labyrinthine

Over cracks along under the trees

I know this town grounded in a compass

Cardinal landed in the dogwood

I keep going over it over and over

My steps iterate my shame

How come every outcome's such a comedown?

Lately afternoon with the shades drawn down

I kept saying I just wanted to see you

Saying: What's wrong with that?

Needles shaking outlines in a compass

Every outcome's such a comedown

I knew it when I saw it

So I deduced what I wanted

So I go through with this

I knew happiness when I saw it

I saw your boyfriend at the port authority

It's a sort of fucked up place

Well so I averted my stride on a quick one

He's coming back from going over to your place, huh?

I feel like I could forget about it

I feel like I could mellow out

I don't feel undone in a big way

There's nothing really bad to be upset about

But when I thought I was getting better

I woke up on the ground

An appointment or disappointment

I set back, oh, another comedown

As if I needed a reminder

Oh, I do only what I want to

So I go through with this

Walking out in the nighttime springtime

Needling my way home

I saw leah on the bus a few months ago

I saw some old friends at her funeral

My steps keep splitting my grief

Through these solipsistic moods

I should call my parents when I think of them

Should tell my friends when I love them

Maybe I should have gone out a bit more

And you guys are still in town

I got too caught up in my own shit

It's how every outcome's such a comedown

And I knew it when I saw it

Oh, I did just what I wanted

So I go through with this

I knew happiness when I saw it