Don't Exist

I remember when we were young

And I showed signs of a promising love,

I could hear church bells ringing

But they never rang for us because

I could never learn to trust or commit,

So you wrote that you would carry

All the love for the both of us,

At the time I thought this would be enough,

I'll just wallow in some dying lust,

I remember when I was insane,

When I thought people didn't change.

I thought we were making progress,

But your body language contradicts

Your monologue of pretext so I'll admit,

I'm losing interest and my love was a pretense,

I'm tired of these failing attempts to balance myself

Between what you want and the opinions of everyone else.

I keep rewinding progress. I know I'm a fiasco.

But it's not your fault, we were young and impressionable.

Though the man that you love doesn't love you at all,

He's still a good man. I'm still a good man. I guess.

Well I'll look at all the lonely people.

They say it's all my fault, that I'm alone because

I'm tenacious and I do not care.

So I'll just ignore the lonely people.

To them I know I don't exist.

I'm losing all my best friends, we were all hypocrites.

I'm losing all my best friends and I don't exist.