I'm Alive

My life is a rollercoaster of emotions

Home is with you and without you I feel like I'm homeless, hopeless

Don't miss out on my love

Holdin' grudges never got me nowhere, so I let it all go

If I can't love myself how the fuck do I love someone else?

But I know I want you

Never been the one to beat around the bush

So do you want me too?

Every day closer to my casket

Time wasted waitin', debatin' on you, but savin' my breath

Communicatin' late nights when I'm up pacin' back and forth (Yeah, yeah)

Baby, you don't wanna be mine?

Then why you calling me all the time?

Playin' with my mind

Takin' advantage, knowin' that I'm fragile (Yeah, yeah)

Well-spoken, but I'm broken

Hopin' you would not leave my heart frozen

Feel like I'm close to explodin'

Floatin' through the rivers and the oceans 'til I'm gone

I'm alive, I'm a liar, I'ma die never lovin' myself, yeah, yeah

I'ma ride with my baby girl Nina tucked under my belt

You know I just wanna get by, don't wanna feel nothin' inside

Swallow my pride, let that bitch ride

Let her get high, let her get all of me, yeah

I'm alive, I'm a liar, I'ma die never lovin' myself, yeah, yeah

I'ma ride with my baby girl Nina tucked under my belt

You know I just wanna get by, don't wanna feel nothin' inside

Swallow my pride, let that bitch ride

Let her get high, let her get all of me, yeah

I can't have no artificial love

I need that real, genuine love above anything

Baby, you fuckin' with a trust fund baby fuckboy that never been through a thing

And I felt pain I never wanted to feel

And I seen things I never wanted to see

And I just want someone to want me to be me

Balls deep in a bitch like

I got what you need, baby, leave it to me

You'll see what I mean when you give me the time

Mind corrupted from my past

I get into it knowin' it won't last

But I'm codependent

Baby Bone can't be alone

Panic attacks at home so where do I go now?

The lone wolf left his comfort zone

And opened up the door for whores to let it run its course

Of course I know love is torture

Never been known to do what I'm supposed to

So I left it all

Invested all my time in you

Before I knew if it was mutual

Please don't give me a reason to leave, I need ya, ya

And I know I can't keep up with ya

Guess I really gotta give up on ya, ya, ya

I'm alive, I'm a liar, I'ma die never lovin' myself, yeah, yeah

I'ma ride with my baby girl Nina tucked under my belt

You know I just wanna get by, don't wanna feel nothin' inside

Swallow my pride, let that bitch ride

Let her get high, let her get all of me, yeah

I'm alive, I'm a liar, I'ma die never lovin' myself, yeah, yeah

I'ma ride with my baby girl Nina tucked under my belt

You know I just wanna get by, don't wanna feel nothin' inside

Swallow my pride, let that bitch ride

Let her get high, let her get all of me, yeah

I'm alive, I'm a liar, I'ma die never lovin' myself, yeah, yeah

I'ma ride with my baby girl Nina tucked under my belt

You know I just wanna get by, don't wanna feel nothin' inside

Swallow my pride, let that bitch ride

Let her get high, let her get all of me, yeah