Bone To Pick

In an instant, starting over

Meeting you here again, thinking when will it end?

Then it's over, never closure

Only reinventing timelines over and over

Oh, the fear hurts

Will a smile reflect back from your knife or the mirror?

Now I wonder

How much love is in your heart?

Do you spare them? Do you end them?

Do you take away everyone I've ever loved, or befriend them?

I'm uncertain

'Cause I've seen it go both ways, and damn, it's unnerving

When you know that

In a million other lives you're living without them

And without him

What's the point of living on?

Some days we keep your company

Some days they hear your knife and flee

Some days we're up there in the Sun

Some days you've murdered all but one

Tell me, are you the violent one?

Has someone forced you to succumb?

Regardless of the why or who

I've got a bone to pick with you

Just imagine

If you never fell down here I wouldn't be tortured and ragged

And it's sad, 'cause

Even when you mean no harm, the memories attack and

It's the violence

It's the murder and the loss, the miserable silence

Wonder why it's left me haunted for so long

Can't erase it, can't contain it

Can't forget the charade of a smile on your face and I hate it

You're insane and

Even though you've spared them all this time, that won't change it

In your face there's

Something evil and inhuman, dark and invasive

Do you hate them? Is this even you at all?

Won't you stop this? 'Cause I promise

That you're stronger than this, I know you can resist, no more bloodshed

No more dying

No more nightmares, no more waking broken and crying

They've possessed you

But you've got to shut them out, don't let them repress you

Or it's best you never come back underground

(You can't know what you've put me through

You dirty brother killer, you

You were so worthy in his eyes

How could you make me watch him die?)

It continues like a circle

Never ending, unchanging, restarting, the pain, it's a nightmare

Now you're right there

What do you want from me this time? Just let it end here

I remember

When we used to be so innocent, now that's over

Starting over

Turn around and shake my hand