Stalemate

I've sought so hard to sustain this gain

Now watch me give this ground away

What can I do but admit I'm in over my head?

Colors fade from blue to dark red

I'm back (sic) into a corner by my choices

I'm hearing those same dark voices

At the mercy of my desires helpless, trivial

I'm left with no defenses

Stimulus, response, repeated failures-I'm sick

This sickness fills my senses

But despite my apparent loss I see release

This Stalemate, my peace

Your wilderness is Stalemate

You can't move against me

Stalemate

The walls built around me

But as this theme continues to follow close behind, I see so clearly

If I would only let go of my tendencies

I would know what it is to be free

I can't win when I indulge this fantasy

Reduced as a pawn led to misery

"A little detour won't hurt let me change you slowly

A moment's pleasure, but you'll owe me."

All encompassing defeat awaits the day

I choose to plunge and embrace this nightmare

But the night has an end and I see you and you see me as the dawn of the one

Who has adopted my ailment, my sickness

My Stalemate reveals my blindness to my own condition

I'll still run away from six seconds of defeat, six years of agony

I'll still stand at odds with six seconds of defeat, six years of agony

I'm senseless, erode my senses

To fill my day with indulgence which leads to my undoing

I'll never look back, I'll never taste it again.