So I Just Wait

I have spent many days regretting the days I’ve spent regretting

Believe me, it's an endless cycle

Just like the anxiety of being anxious

Fast heartbeat, sweaty palms

Skin so hot, eyes so lost

Remember that phase when this happened every other day?

Baby I'm tired and want to go to bed

But my bus is late and hasn’t gotten here yet

So I just wait

I don't know what it is that has got me like this

But I feel something strong that’s holding me

Holding me down

But I don't want to bother you

Baby I hate feeling like a weight

It’s just that I wait all damn to get home to you

Maybe stop feeling blue

Oh and lately I’ve been feeling that you don't want me to

And you yell at me: “Just say how you feel

I really want to go, but I’ll stay if you need”

And I do, I do

When has this stopped being fun for you?

Last week you smiled, yesterday you nodded

And today you cry and cry