Exhale

I open up my eyes

I take a look around

I do not recognize

Any of these people around me

What happened to my scars?

What happened to her car?

And why the fuck do I feel so sober?

Is anybody listening?

Is anybody here with me?

Why is it so easy to breath again?

To whom it may concern

I think I’ve done it again

I’ve pushed the boundaries of how far my luck will take me

Why can’t I just be happy

Happy with thinking clearly for once in my life?

To whom it may concern

I think I’ve done it again

Pushing the loved ones

The people I call my family

To fade away like me

I rot away

Searching for signs of a familiar face

Or really anything at all

Just yesterday

I was in your arms and we were finally together and happy

Now I’ve gone and thrown it all away

To whom it may concern

I think I’ve done it again

I’ve pushed the boundaries of how far my luck will take me

Why can’t I just be happy

Happy with thinking clearly for once in my life?

To whom it may concern

I think I’ve done it again

Pushing the loved ones

The people I call my family

To fade away like me

It’s either hell or obscurity

Rotting dignity

Rotting away like the corpse that I’m supposed to be

I’m glad you know what it feels like

Living everyday like me

Rotting dignity

Rotting away like the corpse that I’m supposed to be

I miss the sound of your voice at night

And what we were supposed to be

I don’t want to be a ghost to you anymore

I don’t want to be the thought in the back of your mind

And I really can’t take the sight of your face

As you look at my name in a concrete line

I don’t want to see the pearly gates

Because my heaven’s when you’re with me

Because my heaven’s when you’re with me