Orchid

I don’t want to stay another day,

When I know you’re at home all alone in disarray,

With a mind that refuses to communicate.

I don’t want to feel anything

If it’s not the embrace of your warmth when you’re near me.

But you’re colder now these days.

You keep your head locked away,

Your worries to yourself.

But how am I supposed to help

To pull you up from your inner hell?

I see your hands and they’re shaking.

Why are they shaking?

Can’t stop them from shaking

I hope you never come to realize I’m talking about you

The four years we’ve been through

And I miss you more and more

The calming thought of you smiling

Is what I’d love to wake up to

But I never see that anymore.

The pills go easier with water

Your mind can’t take the weight of the world again

And it pains me to know

That all I can really do is hope and wait.

I see your hands and they’re shaking.

(Why are they?)

I hope you never come to realize I’m talking about you,

The four years we’ve been through,

And I miss you more and more.

The calming thought of you smiling is what I’d love to wake up to,

But I never see that anymore.

I hope you never come to realize I’m talking about you

But if you were to

Just know I’m happy that I’m yours

I’m so sorry that your mind hasn’t come around,

Leaving you digging six feet under the ground.

I wish I knew a better way

I wish I knew the words to say

Just know I have enough faith for the both of us.

Hold your head up high

Please don’t drown yourself tonight.

I’ll take you home, warm you up, show you a different light.

I swear to God, you’ll see another night.

I’m the furthest from fine.

I need you by my side.