Medicine Bottle

Giving in to love

And sharing my time

Letting someone into my misery

I told it all step by step

How I landed on the island

And how I swim across the sea

And it crosses my mind

That I may awake to a knife in me

No more breath in my hair

Or ladies underwear

Tossed up over the alarm clock

Blood dripping from the bed

To a neatly written poem

Heartfelt last line reading

"There is no more mystery

Is it going to happen, my love?

There is no more mystery

Is it going to happen, my love?"

It's all in my head, she said

Morning after nightmare

You're building a wall, she said

Higher than the both of us

So try living life instead of hiding in the bedroom

Show me a smile and I'll promise not to leave you

It happened under a rainy cloud

Passing through the dark South

We went into a big house

And slept in a small bed

I didn't know you then

As well as you love me

We talked of our sad lives

And we went off separetely

And we went off separately

I found your overseas souveniers

Holiday greeting cards

And some long forgotten high school fears

It's all in my head, I said

Banging on the piano

I've not been so alone

I thought, since kicking in the womb

I drank so much tea

I put my letters in kanji

Around the block I walked and walked

Pretending you were with me

Not wanting to die out here

Without you

The hurting never ends

Like birthdays and old friends we forget

There is fresh blood and blood is human

Trading phone lines for airlines

Unwilling to face

That love is found on the inside

Not the outside

And like a medicine bottle

In the cabinet

I'll keep you

And like a medicine bottle

In my hand

I will hold you

And swallow you slowly

As to last me a lifetime

Without holding too tight

I do not want to lose

The thrill that it gives me

To look out from my window

And scowl at the houses

From my world in my bedroom

It's all in his head, she read

In a girlfriend's self-help book

It's all 'cause he's making a war with himself

Like two sides with a wall

That separates two countries

He shuts out the world he once knew

To love you

Not wanting to die out here

Without you

Not wanting to die out here

Without you