The Fullness Of Time

The Fullness Of Time

[I. Rage:]

Struck down by the persons that I trusted

Robbed of dignity and left for dead

I can feel unmeasurable anger building in me

Emptiness and rage begin to burn inside my head

Once I was a person withoug malice

Once my heart bled red instead of black

Friends with one hand held behind their backs carried knives

Didn't see the blades 'till tehy were buried in my back

Sleep with one eye open

Knowing that I'm watching you

Listen for my footsteps on every darkened street

Like a call for help unanswered

You can scream but no one hears your voice

No one there to save you

As I take my just revenge

I can hear your laughter

I can see you think you've won

But I don't know how you live

With no remorse for waht you have done

You claimed you were my friend

All the while you planned to murder me

You claimed that I imagined all the things you'd done to me

You'll pay for being so destructive

Youll beg for compassion

But I've nothing left to give

[II. Despair:]

Left now

Alone with your betrayal

There's no way to feel secure

Anymore

Broken

Crushed in soul and spirit

With no way to set things right again

Gone

You have stolen everything I ever had

And I'm left with nothing more than pain

And I know I'll never trust the way taht I once did

You have taken all my dreams

And turned them to ashes in my mouth

Starving

Searching for some comfort

Left to choke on my despair

Blinded

My faith and friendship shattered

And my life beyond repair

[III. Release:]

Lying here surrounded

By the pieces of my life

Would it all be easier

If I lay be down to die

Dreams piled high

On the back of this broken man

Is this all? Born to fall?

Or to rise again?

So much pain and disillusionment

Everything I once felt sure about

We're all lost if we don't know

It's all a game that we are playing

The motions of all our counterparts

A piece of sinsiter scheme

The puppet that's broken has reason to smile

They can no longer force him to dance on their strings

Why shrug off the chains? If you wrap them about

You'll be sunk to the bottom and drowning

The clockwork behind their smiles

Wound by hands that were made to harm

Just release yourself

Cause they can't rape the willing

Or take waht you have if there's nothing else

Tired of life and filled with despair

And covered with blood from the crosses I bear

But I'm still standing

SHould I make myself crawl?

Seems so counter to our nature

Accepting with grace the things we can't change

But when all's said and done and you're wronged and deceived

Then it matters tha most what you choose to believe

Should I fight against fate

Or should I just lay down and die?

The puppet that's broken has reason to smile

But the strings can't control you if you walk away

No more tears of disillusionment

I'l be a puppet no longer

The hands that I thought had held me

THe clockwork behind their smiles

They'll not have control over me

I'll stand up and leave them behind

Just release yourself

Cause they can't rape the willing

Or take what you have if there's nothing else

Tired of life and filled with despair

And covered with blood from the crosses I bear

But I'm still standing

Should I make myself crawl?

Just release yourelf

When you're wounded by no one else

Rise above pain, most past my despair

And put down the cross that I've made myself bear

Now I'm still standing

And I'm not gonna crawl

[IV. Transcendence:]

Now

The smoke finally cleared

And I can see the wreckagae of my past that lies about me

Now

It's all become so clear

And I have learned the

Truth behind the lies and seen the lies within the truth

Everythng in context finally makes sense

I see the paths I walked

Some I paved myself

Some where I went gladly

Some against my will

I

Can leave behind the fear and doubt

And cast aside the shackles and the chains

Of flawed assumptions I learned as a child

I can't let them distract me

So I'm Putting aside the memories

Of the things I never had but thought I wnated

Now

My notions of what makes relationships have a new light

I have gained an understanding

No more false facades

Covering my feelings

Preventing a connection

I've been spending my whole life pursuoing those who built this cell

Lamenting all the hateful things that happened to me

Never thought to look at how I might have played a part in who I am

Or what it means to lose the game before it starts

Now I know that I cannot turn back and change the past

And that the only choice to save myself

Is changing what I carry from it

Everything I did to myself

Everything that's been done to me

I'll turn my back on that and walk away

And left with only me

At last I see the answer and what I need to be

Letting go

I destroy my shell

Embrace my heart

And free myself

The point of the search, may not be the answer

The value of a want, is not always a need

Still I stand, I'm not going to crawl

Now I know, I've got to believe

Once I was a person without malice

Once my heart bled red instead of black

Openness and introspection now sho me the way

To reclaim all I've lost and take it back

You may have taken everything I ever had

But you cannot take my future

Just release yourself

All I was and

All that I'll ever be

Finally are integrated

And I am whole again

Now I know the reason for the suffering

I'm a better person for having known the pain

A better person having overcome the pain