The Fullness Of Time IV: Transcendence

Now

The smoke has finally cleared

And I can see the wreckage of my past that lies about me

Now

It's all become so clear to me

And I have learned the

Truth behind the lies and seen the lies within the truth

Everything in context finally makes sense

I see the paths I've walked

Some I've paved myself

Somewhere I went gladly

Some against my will

Can leave behind the fear and doubt

And cast aside the shackles and the chains

Of flawed assumptions I learned as a child

I can't let them distract me

So I'm putting aside the memories

Of the things I never had but thought I wanted now

My notions of what makes relationships have a new light

I have gained an understanding

No more false facades

Covering my feelings

Preventing a connection

I've been spending my whole life pursuing those who built this cell

Lamenting all the hateful things that happened to me

Never thought to look at how I might have played a part in what I am

Or what it means to lose the game before it starts

Now I know that I cannot turn back and change the past

And that the only choice to save myself

Is changing what I carry from it

Everything I did to myself

Everything that's been done to me

I'll turn my back on that and walk away

And left with only me

At last, I see the answer

And what I need to be

Letting go

I destroy my shell

Embrace my heart

And free myself

The point of the search, may not be the answer

The value of a want, is not always a need

Still I stand, I'm not going to crawl

Now I know, I've got to believe

Once I was a person without malice

Once my heart bled red instead of black

Openness and introspection now show me the way

To reclaim all I've lost and take it back

You may have taken everything I ever had

But you cannot take my future

Just release yourself

All I was and

All I'll ever be

Finally, are integrated

And I am whole again

Now I know the reason for this suffering

I'm a better person for having know the pain

A better person having overcome the pain