From Nothing

All that I am

Came from nothing

No lies

Story of my life

I lost it all right in front of my eyes

No time to sympathize

Push it down, internalize

Endless nights

Locked inside my mind

Nowhere to go

Just keep it to yourself

I am alive

For the first time

I didn't leave you

You left yourself behind

Tell me something

If it wasn't for the name

Would you still treat me the same

Or would you turn and walk away

There is nothing

That I'd enjoy more

Than if things could just go back

To the way they were before

But no

This will never be okay

Even when you say you'll stay

You're always gone anyway

So please

Don't make a promise you can't keep

No need to try to cry me

I promise I'm not losing sleep

All my life

I've been waiting to die

Night by night I dream of suicide

I realize

I've been trying to hide

From the monster within me

Dwelling inside

Why oh why

Did it have to be me

I've asked this endlessly

But now I finally see

I am the one to blame

For the pain and the scars

I couldn't handle my mind

So I tore it apart

If I don't believe in myself

Why would anyone else