I Gave You Away

Truly the first, the only, the second chance

I gave you away, I gave you away

Nervousness found, you whispered a pure romance

You said don't be afraid, you can't be afraid

But I only hear through critic's love-deaf ears

Choosing that which houses all my fears

My heart will push away if yours gets near

As proof of how it holds you so dear

It's a long way from home

So how did we both get here

Wondering how to feel

We've gone way off course

Thinking ourselves in circles

Making up things to fear

I was afraid what maybe they'd think or say

So I gave you away, I gave you away

New to my eyes, the weeping you blinked away

I was meaning to say, I was burning to say

But we just stood there like fools

Words grew so elusive, silence so cruel

I wish you knew that this next part is true

I never hoped I'd hurt you like I do

It's a long way from home

So how did we both get here

Wondering how to feel

We've gone way off course

Thinking ourselves in circles

Making up things to fear

Every part of me

Knew that this night would be an ending

And damn what people see

I wanted to cry uncontrollably

But that's when you said something so strange

Just as I thought things would never change

You said, “hold me so we always stay the same

But kiss me like they're taking me away.”