Get Better

I used to live for days like these

Waking up at half past 3

And crawling in when your alarm would speak

I guess perhaps I’m growing up

Or maybe I’ve just seen enough

Of people going downhill rapidly

And from the day that you met me

I’ve only been selfless once or twice

And though you tried hard to change me

The truth is I’ve been selfish all my life

So call me what you want

But at least I can be honest with myself

I know I used to hold a front

And when I needed it I wouldn’t take the help

But I am changing how I think

And I am trying to change everything

And I hope that you can get better as well

I lost my friends or let them go

In honesty I wouldn’t know

Cause half the time I drank too much to see

If they had just got bored of me

And all my bullshit misery

And all the extra bullshit I would speak

And from the day that you met me

I’ve let almost everyone down

And when the cops came to take me

You thought I would turn things around

So call me what you want

But at least I can be honest with myself

I know I used to hold a front

And when I needed it I wouldn’t take the help

But I am changing how I think

And I am trying to change everything

And I hope that you can get better as well

And if you’re feeling lost like me

Just know I’m trying desperately

But sometimes you’re your own worst enemy

I am my own worst enemy