Pendulum

I am not afraid of dying

I am just scared of not existing anymore

Forever trapped in my feelings

I keep looking back but the clock keeps ticking

How can I go forward constantly overthinking about overthinking?

All the things I’ll never do

All the choices I’ve made

It sounds fair but feels wrong

Please let me know where I belong

Just let me know where I belong

Just like the sea-front of the city

Is corroded by salt

I’m starting to feel like my body

Is corroded by my soul

And now the last wave retreats

A final ray of sunshine falls

But I can’t keep my eyes off the hourglass

My own little black hole

Cause it feels frozen in my head

I’m so tired to pretend

There is something about me

That I know I need to kill

The guilt of all these wasted years

With both feet stuck in the sand

The worst part in all of this

Is that I don’t know where to go next

This is my black and black vision

Once fear has killed the ambition

There is not much left to be saved

The poison has too far spread

Let me wander like the withered leaf

For once I’ll stray from the purpose

Now that I’ve passed the point of no return

Maybe I’ll find where I belong

Just let me know where I belong