0300 Hours

Woke up & heard the news, it was 3 o' clock

Couldn't function, couldn't breathe, my heart stopped

Today I held you, today I kissed you

Told you I loved you, now I'm screaming out, "I MISS YOU!"

I can't believe what I'm hearing from his mama on the phone

Suddenly it's all gone. Man, I'm all alone

I don't think I've woken up, this must be a dream

Cuz there's a kid inside of me & he's gon need a team

& now it's only me. My baby ain't near me

She's screaming on the phone like, "Jordan, can you hear me!?"

I hang it up. I'm having trouble breathing

I'm socking all my walls till my fist starts bleeding

& now I'm screaming, I'm steady thinking bout the facts

There's nothing I can do, there's no way he's coming back

This ain't no break up to make up, no ransom, bail, or price tag

All I got left is my baby in a black bag

My phone keeps ringing. Why the fuck they keep calling !?

I can't fucken stand and these tears keep falling

I'm looking at the ceiling. How'd I get on the floor ?

I must have passed out. Now it's about 4

I don't bother getting up cuz there ain't nothing else to live for

Crawl over to the cabinet. I'm downing all the liquor

Not thinking about nothing. I just want my boo

Fuck the world, fuck my baby, motha fuck you !

I pick it up again, it's Roger on the line

He says he's coming over cuz he knows I'm fucken dying

He says I sounds drunk & he's really fucken worried

I'm seeing blurry. He says he's coming in a hurry

He barges in, I'm on the floor, wasted & shaking

He shakes me, looking at me, says, "What have you taken ?"

He sees the bottles on the floor & he hits me in the lip

Says, "What the fuck you doing ? You're having a fucken kid!"

The phone rings again. He picks it up & then he grabs me

Carries me to the car. I wanna die so badly

Takes me to a house. Everybody's there gathered

I got my head down, shit, nobody even matters

I swear to fucken God, time stopped that night

& I swore to fucken God when I saw that sight

That 1 day he would be sorry even though I knew he wouldn't be

Why did you take my baby ? He's so motha fucken good to me

They say you never really know what you got until it's gone

I knew & loved what I had but shit still went wrong

We motha fucken loved each other. You could say we were obsessed

Now he's gone & I don't know what to do. I'm such a mess

I'm so depressed, fucken stressed & every night before I sleep

I say a little prayer for my baby, rest in peace

Man, you're always on my mind & you're always in my face

I see you everywhere I go. Every motha fucken place

I gotta tell myself to stop because I get myself hoping

It's you standing there. Man, I'm having trouble coping-

I went back to the coke thing, I cry until I'm choking

Only time I feel at peace is when I'm by myself smoking

I drink myself to sleep. This shit is fucking with my mind

I'm doing therapy & pills. I think I just need time

I wish that I was blind, wish I was def & emotionless

The 1 person I love ! I can't believe I have to go through this !

I wish that I could kiss you & fuck you til we can't

Wish we could have a conversation. Wish that I could hold your hand

But all I got left is poems & love letters

Some pictures & some videos saying you "finally met her."

The love of your life. Brown eyes, 5'3''

Man, a cutie with a booty, you were talking bout me

I lost our precious little baby. Doctor said it was the stress

Didn't even wanna have it, man, I gotta confess

Cuz when you died I turned cold & it broke my fucken spirit

I'm writing you this song saying I love you, hope you hear it

They say you never really know what you got until it's gone

I knew & loved what I had & shit still went wrong

We complimented each other, they always said that we were perfect

Now he's gone, I'm feeling like I'm motha fucken worthless

I lost my purpose & every night before I sleep

I cry & say a little prayer, boy, I love you, rest in peace