Nothing Left

Lord there’s nothing left of me

Lord there’s nothing left of me

Such an old soul

With such a young spirit

People try to tell me how to live my life

I don’t wanna hear it

And it’s not ‘cause I’m not good at listening

But I’m not commisioning any human to be belittling me

I’m distancing myself

It’s interesting

Cause when I took that step back I couldn’t believe what I was witnessing

Behind the scenes

Fucking nevermind these things

These people don’t think I see their true intentions when they be lyin’ to me?

I try to be myself and I try to be true

But when I look in the mirror I don’t know if I see reverie or you

This relationship is so utterly complicated

Cause reverie provokes thoughts of everything that I’ve ever hated

Frustrated, and jaded

My heart was invaded

Persueded my prevaricational fantasies

To remain sedated

I waited

I dictated my struggles and my devestation

Unmotivated and tainted I led my life intoxicated

Lord there’s nothing left of me

Lord there’s nothing left of me

Lord there’s nothing left of me

Lord there’s nothing left of me

So tell me how you deal with these split personalities

One focuses on life and the other upon the casualties

See gradually I’m faded

So damn focused on the drama

Only person that still seems me as “jordan” would be my mama

Put it on ya if you want it

You can say my house was haunted

Took four pills to murder my baby

Felt her coming out of my stomach

I could still feel the pain if I close my eyes tight enough

It was bright enough

I didn’t cry enough

I thought about it every night, I didn’t die, but what

Snap in my fuckin’ brain

It will never be the same

I can say that I regret it just admitting to the pain

Anyway, where am I going with this story

I’m just venting

Tend to get carried away in these theraputical sentences

Remember this

When I die

I hated breathing

You can call me masochistic and insane but I prefer bleeding

And what I’m needing is some wings to fly away

Or a time machine to get me the fuck away from today

Lord there’s nothing left of me

Lord there’s nothing left of me

Lord there’s nothing left of me

Lord there’s nothing left of me