Unknowable

This is a story that came from the void

From the infinite emptiness

No sound, no feelings, no dreams, no regrets

Just an infinite looped thought, staring at an immense black blank canvas

The memories, oh, the memories I used to have, worn-out

Vanished in this path of solitude

No memories persisted

Not even to mourn

The places I used to know got lost in time and remained light-years away

An unforgiving time with a million days per year

Short days, short as nights

A huge contrast, light-shadow, airy-damped, sickly aligned in a nauseating spinning motion that creates an uncomfortable cold war in my nucleus

I’m tired of being half light and half shadow

Constantly changing, like an empty libra in the wind

Wobbling

With the wind

This loop is endless

I have no summer, not even spring

This cold penetrates my bones, my body shrivels

Upon me, no yellow leaves shall fall

There is no air to breathe

Here, trees were forbidden to root on my chest

I have only frozen seeds hoping for the right soil

Connectors of life, sleeping in a dark cold chamber

I am stuck in this momentum

I am stuck in this momentum

Stuck in this momentum

Walking in a direction I can not choose

My mass gets colder and drier year by year

And this giant mess is the only thing that is still with me

Tamely with me, in this unlimited space

How can it be possible to be an unknown to myself?

To feel that there’s no decision you can make

No change you can even desire

No ambition

Nothing

I wish I could escape, I wish I could feel attracted

I wish I could feel, I wish

If you could hear me, pull me out of this vicious circle

Release me

Let me fall

Please

Let me fall