Lew's Lullaby

Tears fill up my head

We can’t stay on this bed forever

But I sort of thought

When I left your room

You'd come running out

Say I left too soon

But it's 5 am

You should get some sleep

See you in a year

Maybe two or three

Off to college today

My first school without friends

Here’s my chance to start new

Here’s my chance to pretend

That I'm not quite as sad

As my music lets on

And I'm not quite as madly

In love with someone

Who lives oceans away

I could swim if she wanted

But she thinks it’d be best

If we both just moved on

It's not something she’d say

If she hadn’t already

I need something to break

Someone to keep me steady

I pick myself up off another floor now

Set my head upon my neck again

Guess I'll give the world another chance to end

I'll give the world another chance to show me why it probably should

And I saw plenty good

But that was long before you left me here alone

That was long before they set me free to roam

And now I think that maybe if I’d stayed at home

I’d still have a brain that’s not depression-prone

It’s weighed me down since you turned it to stone

I’ll leave it here on the side of the road

One wants not for that of which one does not know

If I lose my mind I'll lose the thought of you

And that's the only option you've left me to choose

So

I’ll stay out of my mind (x14)