Disappearing Act

Im distracted, not attracted

You attach without connection

As I self serve my diffracted mind

I dont want what I need

I dont care about the scars I leave

Your name and smile a thrown out file

As soon as we break away

Only when I hate you do I really love myself

I will only bring you pain

I can only hurt you

You wont want me then Ill want you

When you come back I wont want you

Pushed and pulled our minds will rip in two

Im so scared of what I need I dont care

About the scars received

I live in self denial

Im afraid of what Ive got

I dont know why I hate you when you love me

I can only bring you pain

I can only hurt you

I can only let you down

My lifes the lies of you and i

Ive grown so hard that I deny

accusations even When theyre true

My pain is all I trust I dont care

How much I bleed

Dont regret the time you met me

Dont hold the harm I did against me

I dont know why I want to hurt you When you touch me

I will only bring you pain

I can only hurt you

I will only let you down

Why do you stick around and let me do this?

Why do you stick around for this torture?

Only when Im with you do I want to be without, yeah!

Your eyes are the windows to the emptiness inside me