Bad Dreams

I thought it was raining,

but it's only the AC

running in courtyard.

I wasn't complaining,

I only raise an eyebrow

when I'm feeling shot down.

Or I...

Take a stick to me,

kick me till I fall,

swollen under my skin,

I am far...far...far...far...

On the playground I am

the only one at recess

lying on the asphalt.

My mother would die if

she knew I did this

to myself.

Don't tell her

Don't tell her,

I'm alright,

she knows I'm

her smartest child.

I'm down again,

my foot is on my head

I black, I black,

I blue and I red.

I'm down,

and she won't let you touch her,

anyone could see she's gone inside.

She won't let you love her,

nobody could make her open

wide enough,

wide enough,

wide enough.

I search for my place,

and climbing out of bed,

I make a little too much noise.

When I walk alone,

It's easy to pretend

I never had a problem.

And I try to rest,

but all I get is

bad dreams,

bad dreams,

bad dreams,

kick me till I fall.

When I wake alone,

It's easy to forget

I ever had a problem.