Perfect World

Talked to my dad on the phone today

He broke down and apologized

Said he sorry for the way things got fucked up

And he wished he did a better job

Couldn’t see his face but I could hear his watered eyes

I could hear him loud and clear; wonder what am I?

Understand me, I just want to see him try

But he didn’t want to see us, so he just shut his eyes

Told him don’t sweat it I’m good, I’m fine

Your childhood was no harder than mine

I know he’s your dad but motherfuck my grandpa and the daughters that he victimized

And the way that he treated his sons when your brother was alive

Once upon a time

And I know that you still don’t believe in the way that he died

Honestly neither do I but we just comply

Nod our head, move on

Brand new city, new wife, new mom

All those days you whooped my ass

Those same nights I wished you gone

So I hid in the bathroom and I wrote my first song without a beat

Hid the dirty clothes underneath the crack in the door

So you couldn’t ever see my feet

Let the water run so you couldn’t hear my voice

Hid the notebook so you never ever knew

Song after song, page after page, day after day

Writin' songs about you

So when you say that you proud of me now

Can’t explain what that means

We are who we are because of that shit

So no, I don’t want to be

In a perfect world

Where nothin’ ever goes wrong

Far, far away from here, no

Water from the tears I

Wonder how they ever grow

In a perfect world

Where nothin’ ever goes wrong

Far, far away from here, no

Water from the tears I

Wonder how they ever grow

Talked to my big bro-bro today

He broke down and apologized

Said he’s sorry for the way things got fucked up

And he wish he did a better job

As he rolled up a blunt of some medical pine

Lit it, but he didn’t want to hit it this time

Hands started shakin' and then he started cryin'

Shit had been building in the pit of his mind

He said, "I wish I never robbed my brothers"

"I wish I never robbed those bitches"

Now any time somebody can’t find they shit

And they can’t find me, then I’m suspicious

Don’t nobody think I’m sufficient

And my time is ticking

I wish I never dropped out of school

Now it's either sell dope or wash them dishes

I said look my friend, my dawg

I know you feel lost and that’s real (true)

But you wouldn’t want to feel warmer inside if you never had gotten them chills (true)

Could you save your son from fallin’ this far if you don’t know how that shit feels?

If Anthony never OD'd and died then I would prolly still be poppin' pills

Rest his soul, we are who we are

You don’t enjoy thinkin' back that far

This shit wasn’t easy, most times it was hard

But the darkest of nights make the brightest of stars

So be the light in the dark, fuck bein' the norm

Some days I wish it was easier too, but shit we were not born

In a perfect world

Where nothing ever goes wrong

Far, far away from me, no

Water from the tears I

Wonder how they ever grow

In a perfect world

Where nothing ever goes wrong

Far, far away from me, no

Water from the tears I

Wonder how they ever grow

In a perfect world