Angel In Lothian

When an angel fell somewhere in Lothian

I was only a child, but I trust my eyes

She burnt up like a comet before me

Before I could even say hi

Saw kingdoms come and go in Bernicia

With a space station rattling above my head

And I saw the dead

I saw the dead

Back then, yeah, the door was always open

I'd come and go, back and forth, anytime I need

But I'm needing it more now than ever

'Cause I'm fading away

And I claw at the door every bad night

But somehow it's blocked from thе other side

I claw till my skin comes apart

Until I feel something

And I remember that pain in my mother

Being helpless and feckless and far too young

My brother was spiraling down

He said: Kid it's not me, it's this town

So I rail against that feeling when it comes

I no longer have solitude behind that door

And I know drugs that can hold it

You gotta hold it yourself

I wish an angel fell somewhere in Lothian

She could've fixed all the problems that I cannot fix

But one day I might have kids myself

And hope that I don't fuck them up myself

Hey!

(And I've been here, the door's always open)