Turtles All The Way Down

I'm not well

As you can tell

By the way i haven't looked you in the eye

And i'm about to lie

And say i'm fine

But inside, you and i know that's not true

But it's either this or let my burdens weigh on you

And that i just can't do

So i'll choose for the both of us

And you'll just go along because

You've trusted me for no good reason

Here i am committing treason

I'll force the last page of our story

One more boring allegory

I hope to god you'll rise above me

I always bite the hand that loves me

And mine is the "unkindest cut of all"

I'll watch you fall

And i'm aware

That it's not fair

To bring you here, then send you on your way

You had so much to say

And to ask

Like "why am i not cut out for the task

Of loving you forever, of holding you and never wanting less?"

I can take a guess;

See, i could choose for the both of us

And you'd just go along because

You're trusting me for no good reason

You love no matter what the season

And i'd force the ending of our story

You're my favourite allegory

Then hope to god that you'll forgive me

My mistakes will long outlive me

And mine is the "unkindest cut of all"

I'll watch us fall

And i don't know if this makes it any easier

Perhaps you'll find some comfort when i say

You and i are nothing more than meteors

Never meant to live long past today

So i'll choose for the both of us

And you'll just go along because

You've trusted me against your judgement

You deserve someone who doesn't

Force the last page of your story

No more boring allegories

Hope to god you'll rise above me

Though you'll always be part of me

Mine is the "unkindest cut of all"

I'll watch you fall

Now watch me fall