Awakenings

When we first me the well was dry

A long dark winter passed us by

With shooting stars and hopeful hearts our worlds collide

And so we rushed to fill each other in

Quick to feed our hungry hopes

A feast of our affections we were born anew

With open eyes we tried to make it work

And for a while the magic took

But cracks began to show as soon as things got hard

Like paper walls our feelings tore

We threw our backs against the door

Unwilling to bear witness to the other side

Oh, the games we play to hide the tangled dread inside

The fear that we are going nowhere fast

So we point the finger out, the anger gets so loud

It drowns out all the sorrow, at least until tomorrow...what then?

I took a good hard look at how I loved

Years I squandered falling fast

For any boy who'd have me was so insecure

I'd lie awake alone at night

Full of loathing, compromised

And wondering how the hell did I end up like this

Oh, the tears of rage I cried, when nowhere could I find

An answer that made any kind of sense to me

I point the finger out, the anger gets so loud

It drowns out all the sorrow, at least until tomorrow...what then?

Oh I wanna learn, I wanna know

Will our history crush us or can we let it go?

I'm not the girl I was but what have I become?

I'm not so willing anymore to bend

Still pleasing and conceding but I'm not gonna lose myself again