It's Not A Fairytale

It all started like this

Ninth grade freshman year

So happy to be in high school

I shedded a tear

So many cute dudes to choose from

I knew it was one

That was right for me

Well I thought at least

He was the big guy on campus

On the football team

Basketball homecoming

He was voted for king

And there was me

I was on the cheerleading squad

Sweet six-teen looking for love in my heart

It was a beautiful thing from the start

I must say only problem was

My parents was strict

They ain't play

No phone calls after eight

No staying out late

I'm like dam give me a break

Hormones kicking in

Start displaying my shape

More concern with my looks

Then my books and grades

Headed no where fast

I was on my way

Curiosity come on

I know yall relate

It's been a year now I'm a sophomore

Mature and know more

But still I'm young and dumb

And plus I'm unsure

Who I am

What the future has in store

Man I'm trying to be grown

Cuz my parents now divorced

I took a charge to roll with Dough Boy

Moms tried to force me to move to New York

But of course that plan it fail short

She found herself caught up in court

For child support

Drama problems of all sorts

Stressing started smoking new ports

Carefree about the ones who care for me

Lost teen giving up on my dream

And as worst as it seems

Had me thinking crazy things

Like suicide that better everything if I jus die

Fullblown without guidance or a home

I'm startin to get stomache pains

That's strange what could be wrong

What do I do

I ask myself everyday

A child given birth to a child

What can I say

This wasn't suppose too happen

Here I am turned my back on my fam

Well god dam

This wasn't even part of the plan

I'm spazzin out

When I lay down at night the hurt

Just burst out I shout how could he leave

At my time of need

Especially now I'm pregnant

And due in three

Maybe I should have it

And give it for adoption

I can't graduate

I aint been to school since august

Often I hear this voice talking

In the back of my mind

So problems in my life

I just pray for my time to come

God take me leave my child behind

I'm on the run adrenalin pumpin

So angry I could kill something

Don't make me prove it

Cause if you don't do it

Then I will do it

I'm foolish and so stupid