Motionless Skeptic

i watched you throw up your insides.

i watched you rot so thin.

i watched you pause threw breaths. not knowing when you'd end.

did you leave because life's cruel? or because God laughs at my pain?

i know where ever you are i hope you're in a safer place. you know i miss you and it's hard to live without you. and i know if you can see me these days then i know it must be hard for you too. i wish i would have been there. i know i should have been there.

i wish i would have been there.

i know i should have been there.

i wanted to be there for your last breathe.

hold your hand till nothing was left except for your flesh. that's my one regret. you were there for me when i came in.

i wasn't there for you when you left. you were there for me when i came in.

every day is a struggle.

not being able to see your face. my ears grow cold not being able to hear your voice.

i loathe this place.

i had myself under a false appearance just so they will go away.

i hope you know how much i love you and i hope you know how much i care.

i wish i would have been there. i know i should have been there.

i wish i would have been there.

i know i should have been there. i wanted to be there for your last breath. hold your hand till nothing was left except for your flesh. that's my one regret.

you were there for me when i came in.

i wasn't there for you when you left.

you were there for me when i came in. i watched you throw up your insides.

i watched you rot so thin.

i watched you pause threw breaths.

not knowing when you'd end.

i wish i would have been there.

i know i should have been there.

i wish i would have been there.

not being there is my one regret!