Drama King

You said you wanted me to be happy

You said you would love me no matter who I love

But sometimes I feel like I'm destroying your happiness

It seems that everything I do takes me further from you

I didn't mean to hurt you

I just wish I could be myself

But how can I love myself, if you don't love me anymore?

It's not fair that I have to choose between you and me

He calls me the drama king

But I just wanted them to understand what I'm feeling

Try to imagine

What it would be if your mother stopped loving you

It would be too hard

But remember they say it's only drama

Try to imagine

What it would be if your brothers turned their faces to you

It would be too painful

But remember they say it's only drama

Why is not my pain important like anyone else's?

Why do I only have my feelings called worthless?

I was called a special

They called me special

I think I wasn't special

Because now I'm just the king of drama

Dra-dra-drama king

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Dra-dra-drama king

I'm worthless

I heard my own brother call me a fag

He said that he didn't want me near him

He said I had to get a girlfriend

If I wanted to walk with him

I had to fit into the box he chose

He made me feel like crap

I just wanted to be myself

But I could not

He made me choose between him and myself

And I chose him

Then I get a girlfriend

An incredibly smart girl

But she didn't seem to love me either

She just wanted to run away from her parents

And I was the perfect choice

She was with me

But she didn't love me

And I think I did not love her either

I think I loved the fact that I could be with my brother again

But I suffered from within

And she also suffered

It became too painful

All because of the lack of love

Try to imagine

What it would be if your mother stopped loving you

It would be too hard

But remember they say it's only drama

Try to imagine

What it would be if your brothers turned their faces to you

It would be too painful

But remember they say it's only drama

Why is not my pain important like anyone else's?

Why do I only have my feelings called worthless?

I was called a special

They called me special

I think I wasn't special

Because now I'm just the king of drama

Dra-dra-drama king

Dra-dra-drama king

Dra-dra-drama king

I'm worthless

I can't hardly be in the same place as they

I cannot look at them without feeling pain in the heart

I cannot smile at them

I can only imagine that the fact that I was a LGBT person

Turned me into a monster

I became disgusted with myself

Not because I was

But because they did not want me anymore

I stopped fitting

I did not want to fit anymore

I was tired of trying

I was already tired of trying

To believe that things would improve

So I took blades and I got hurt

I cut my wrists to try to forget the pain in the soul

But the pain only increased

I wanted to die

I wanted to give up

I believed that if I went away

If I left forever

They would be happy again

And I would cease to be a weight

Try to imagine

What it would be if your mother stopped loving you

It would be too hard

But remember they say it's only drama

Try to imagine

What it would be if your brothers turned their faces to you

It would be too painful

But remember they say it's only drama

Why is not my pain important like anyone else's?

Why do I only have my feelings called worthless?

I was called a special

They called me special

I think I wasn't special

Because now I'm just the king of drama

Dra-dra-drama king

Dra-dra-drama king

Dra-dra-drama king

I'm worthless

I'm afraid

I'm afraid I will not be able to

I got so close and now depending on other people to help me

But I can hardly find them

I'm broken

I'm broken inside and I feel like there's no one today

Trying to help me to put my pieces together

Maybe I'm a single piece of a puzzle that no longer exists

A lonely solitude that has only the moon as a companion

I don't have value for many people

But I am grateful for those people

Who take care of a smile on my face

God is good all the time

And in every single time God is good