Mental Purgatory

One night, i was stressed out from the world

I wanted to wild out and make the next man curl

Fetus style, right at my feet, my mind swirl

In a pattern of disarray, yo where's my girl

Mabey i can talk it out and get it off my chest

Wash my body fresh, got dressed and left my rest

Put to my mouth a get high, my first mistake

How you see clear, when everything's smothered in flame

Anyway, i'm in bk, in the pj

Floor 13, on p, giving no leeway

Cause any day could be ya last, for the quick cash

Caught up in the lion's den, but them cats slept fast

The lord had mercy on a man living dirty

Chose me for his will, even though i wasn't worthy

Rap on the door, kiss my girl, crack a smile

Animosity flowing through me, just like the nile

Proceed to tell her that i'm fed up, word, dead up

My pride is broke, though i walk with my head up

These backstabbing cats, with their hypocritic acts

They supposed to be dogs, but the going out like rats

Our should i say snakes, my burden is gaining weight

Everything is fake, cause one love, has turned to hate

Every since my loot started to rise, with my pants size

True colors materialize, in my three eyes

Now i see the whole guy, before i saw him head up

But action speaks louder than words, once they mouths let up

I'm lost, i'm looking for wisdom at all cost

The lord's knocking at the door, cause it's jack frost

And i'm thinking no way, a christian walk no dayz

I'm too smart, too much to lose, seeking my own gain

I had a good plan but not a god plan

He dealt me with a hard hand, i reached my personal goal, forfeited my soul

To the enemy for what i thought was freedom

But that's a contradiction when you dancin' with the demon

Mental purgatory 4x

So now ya got jewels, fly cars and fast women

Forty acres house, ballcourt, pool for swimming

But even these material item ain't satisfying

Ya conscious is happy, but in ya subconscious ya dying

Ya try to fill the void, so weed you exploit

Smoking trees back like cancer sticks with lucifer's boys

Or should i say ya click, ya paid out the box committing vic's

What's the math on that, it don't add, see actually it's sad

Cause ya spirit is weak, ya lack true wisdom

Ya might be ghetto free, but in ya mind ya lock prison

Ya slippin', ya used to smoke trees, now ya trippin'

Till' you comatose the drug overdose blurred ya vision

No plan for the future, so money is wasted foolishly

And you the rap cat in ya rhyme supposed to be schooling me

Then one night, deep in the cut, ya own boys pulled the shank up,

Stole ya idols, left you bankrupt

Ain't no money in the bank, cause it's all in ya lungs

Ya went from here, to there then came back where you from

Another set up by the devil, another sad song like aaron neville,

But god does his best in times of trouble

Mental purgatory 2x

He's mighty, here come the day to set the night free

Whatever's in the dark he exposes so that we might see,

Clearly, he'll strengthen you in the time of fear, the divine is hear

Gave me a new lease, plus unbroken peace

Eat nothing but the unleavened yeast, i'm breaking bread

Enough to maintain the many trials of the day ahead

I'm strong in the lord, power greater than street muscle

We hustle with a free gift, his name is jesus

Just commit ya life, follow the code of his thesis

The written truth, real life tested, believer proof

Cause when gathered with more than two there's no telling what he's gonna do

So what the deal duke, it's on you

It's on you, so tell me what you gonna do

Ya body was old, but then the spirit made you new

Renew, ya spirit with the bloodstain

Now in the book of life inscribed ya full name

The world wants my gift but ain't got nothing for me

My rhymes my sacrifice, no more mental purgatory

Some sheep get consumed by the wolf, son its gory

Thank god for the shepherd, now i truly see his glory 2x

Mental purgatory 4x