Grrrl Angst

I was kind of a weird kid

The kind who writes in sharpie on her arms

And my hair in front of my face

Was hiding the eyeliner I was so bad at applying

And I would miss a period

To go out and practice with my band

We never settled on a name

We never wrote a song

But we'd put on our favorite records, and play along

And if you know what you want then

Don’t let anyone tell you you can't

Cause they only tell you to follow your dreams

When they line up with the ones they have for you

And this is all I've ever wanted

Stage left guitar and an amp

And I knew the only way to get it

Was to never have a back up plan

So I dropped out of college

It was never for me anyway

I'm still chasing the same dumb dream I was chasing when I was fifteen

I wanna be an emo heartthrob

I wanna play a show every night

Cause I still believe that teenage angst is enough to build a life

And I'll never be a mother, I'll never be a wife

But I still believe that this Grrrl Angst is enough to build a life

Well I grew up in the suburbs

It doesn't matter where they're all the same

MCR, The Used, and Taking Back Sunday, were the soundtrack to my boredom and pain

I fell in love every day

And got my heart broken by the end of the week

And all those years I hated myself

I wouldn't trade them for anything

You can talk shit if you want to

But let me tell you what I know of that scene

It was the only place that this queer kid could ever find a community

The first time I wore makeup

I was twelve or thirteen

And the first time that I put on black skinny jeans there was no going back for me

And then I started playing music

And suddenly everything changed

I started chasing the same dumb dream I'm chasing now at twenty-three

I wanna be an emo heart lover

I wanna play a show every night

Cause I still believe that teenage angst is enough to build a life

And I'll never be a mother, I’ll never be a wife

But I still believe that this Grrrl Angst is enough to build a life

I never (I never)

Had a backup plan (Had a backup plan)

I never (I never)

Had a backup plan (Had a backup plan)

I never (I never)

Had a back up plan (Had a backup plan)

This is all I’ve ever wanted and this is who I am