Half Of Me

Hook

Half of me just walked away/

And the other half is trying not to stay/

Help me see the hope that's past the rain/

Restore the joy within me and/

Speak to me thru the pain/

Verse 1

This kind of news makes a grown man cry/

The kind of man who has the answers but still ask why/

Why are you down cast ole my soul/

My team expects so much from me, I can't let them know/

That I'm not finding joy and my faith's dying slow/

I gotta go on preaching I gotta go on with the show/

Gotta grace the stage, I gotta make the crowd say oh/

Only problem is I'm not believing the words I flow/

So I look to skies I know the hour has come/

Please remove the thorn cuz one half feels numb/

I got these liars in my head asking where my faiths gone/

I don't feel happy and I don't care to fake for them/

They think me showing pain is the denial of Christ/

Because my tears have been my food all day and night/

Half of me hopes in the Lord and knows I will praise again/

The other half wants to an excuse to wild out in my sin/

They say count it all joy, I got questions about how/

The answers are after death but I got question right now/

I know this to shall pass, whether slow or fast/

I loosen the my grip and for you I grasp/ (2x)

Verse 2

He feels he fled temptation to long, so He's tried of fighting/

He no longer finds his marriage exciting/

She's drowning in depression in the rain/

She can't maintain, Lord can you help her ease the pain/

A father gets news that his newborn son has complications/

He has no idea what he's faced with/

He thinks no prom, no college, no athletic fun /

No matter his disabilities I'm not ashamed of my son/

Lord I pray that when his days on earth are done/

He'll understand that you and the son are one/

One families prays together for financial needs/

Father feels inadequate cuz he aint worked in weeks/

He been laid off he may loose their car and home/

He thinks what good is a man who cant provide for his own/

He sees the pain in wife and children's eyes/

Contemplating suicide cuz dead men cry/

Lord give him eyes to see past the pain/

That his value in life, it doesn't come with things/

I know this to shall pass, whether slow or fast/

They are loosing their grip I hope for you they grasp/ (2x)

Verse 3

I wont let this current pain master me/

What is pain actually/

Lets not address it causally but I don't want to fear pain/

Lets count it all joy its is gain/

Dear life is in my palms & I'm holding on

strength is an illusion right along with this calm that I'm on and I'm feeling far gone-

Cause half of me is hoping that my eyes won't open in morn'

Sorrow is my tongue hear my moans

I'm eager for redemption but I know

There's more than meets the eye to the thorns in my side

So I cry refusing all the lies

Pain is my ally when aligned to who you are

There's more to my scars so I know there's more to yours

I'm resting in your arms

I'm resting in the your wrists

I'm pressing with a limp pain is purposed through your gift

I'm strengthening my grip may this faith in u persist

And when this half insists I pray u breathe in me lament

Amazing is your grace cause while I'm holding you it seems

The truth of the matter is your really holding me