The Beginning (Nervosa)

I used to dream that I could fly

Just above the whispered clouds, beneath the somber sky

I had a dream I was alive

I dreamt that love would never die, goodbye

Dreams were cheap and hope was easy (so light)

The forgeries of life deceiving (so bright)

And as I glided to the ground (so long)

Calcified, the concrete weighed me down (cruel world)

Your wings are holding up the sky

Dear God, I had dreamt that I could fly

Alkaline the burning frost, has blistered deep beneath my bones

And winter spat its hatred, cold and coiled, black and deep

As it called me ever further, where evil burns and never sleeps

I once had prayers that found no words, fragile things I've never spoken

Through my lips passed eulogies for all the oaths that I have broken

And still the ghost of hope was haunting, through the dark to save the living

And still beneath it all I dreamt that God could be forgiving

Your wings are holding up the sky

Dear God, I dreamt that I could fly

When I survey the wondrous cross

On which the Prince of glory died

My richest gain I count but loss

And pour contempt on all my pride

I am the worst of all things here

My crooked, black, and lying heart still spits its bitter fear

And each and every sparrow

They flutter to the ground before they die

So please God don't forget me

''I have been with you all along, you have not noticed me.' Nervosa now felt more ashamed than ever before. 'Why would you still care enough to save me even after seeing the horrible things I have done? Why do you remain here even now?' She asked, sobbing. 'Because, here is where you are,' the Lamb said softly, 'And I long to be with you.''

See from His head, His hands, His feet

Sorrow and love flow mingled down

Did e'er such love and sorrow meet

Or thorns compose so rich a crown?

To Christ, who won for sinners' grace

By bitter grief and anguish sore

Be praise from all the ransomed race

Forever and forevermore