I Don't Wanna Be Here

I bought all these questions in my mind, and I’m still taking pain

I bought all these homies all around, I just can’t take ‘em away

I’m so overrated, overthinking, but I’m still the same

I am not around me anymore, and I can fail me

I am tryna do the certain thing, but I’m still just right here

I am out of control, and my mind still yelling at me

My purpose to breathe, I’m awake, don’t wanna be here

I don’t wanna be here

I don’t wanna lose myself again

I don’t wanna fall apart again

I don’t wanna stay away from my illness

I don’t wanna be in love again

You always put me down, again

You always call me back, again

You’re still making me feel the blame, again

You’re always by my side, and still

I'm okay with this, I just wanna be at home tonight

Laying in my bed, and forgiving me for all that times

That I should go away, and just start

Try a one more time

Pain will be always by my side, but it's all alright

Why I'm just right here I don't know, but I will survive

For all that times that I couldn't realize

I just can't breathe, no, no, no, I just can't breathe

All this pain in my chest, I can't survive

All this pain in my chest, you just make me remind

All of that pain that I had in the past, but now

I can't survive because you're not by my side

You always put me down

You always get me down

You're always in the clouds

You're always getting me out of your mind

You're always trying to make me feel guilty

You're always trying to get off of my life

You're getting out of the way

And now I'm going to kill myself