Guilt Free

I will scream until my lungs collapse from the pressure

It’s building up inside, it’s not like this happened before

And it’s hard to remember this, it still makes me sick

As the days grow longer, as time pulls us apart

And as I fade away, have I done enough for those I love to be proud of me

For my friends and for my family

And I’ll be with you, forever and always

So let me go, nothing stays the same

Your gold will wither into grey, not everything we love grows with age

Your roses will blossom and fade away, take me away, take me

So I can live guilt free

I’ll hold onto these memories, and every last thing you ever said to me

I promise, to remember you for who you are and not who you wanted to be

And I’m so close to giving up, and to saying that I’ve had enough

Of all the things I loved so much including you and me

And I’m scared of my regrets, I’m terrified there’ll be nothing left

Just the thought leaves my heart racing in my chest

I’ll be with you forever and always