Free (feat. Wyann Vaughn)

I wish that somebody would bring me a compass or even a map

Just something to distract me from the fact that I am lost

I got caught up in the whirlwind of experimentation

And I don’t mean sexual relations or physical stimulation limitations;

I got lost by love. See, the media has convinced

Me that all men lie and all men cheat

And if you’re bound to be disrespected then why bother speak?

That black men don’t want brown girls to match with

If a guy shows any interest don’t get too attached

He will leave. And I’ve found a good one

A really good guy but when you are

Stuck in a negative mind state

You feel like happiness is a lie

And you wait for someone to do you

Wrong ‘cause you’ve never been done right

So, you put on your scariest mask

Pull out your ugliest words

Stab deep wounds with your sharpest attitudes

And wait for someone to abandon you

Like you assume you deserve

See, I grew up making the assumption that you date to break up

No such thing as a permanent make-up

You marry to divorce, make rules just to enforce

And you forget that love is about loving somebody

Not picking them apart, not fighting, but love

And I’ve waited years for this guy to mess up

I ran from the truth cause it wasn’t enough

I wanted lies, I wanted to be fooled so I can move forward

And not have to worry about being lied to or fooled anymore

I spat hate, he swallowed pride

I cooked pain, he threw up lies

I kicked him out, he came inside

I walked away, he walked beside

I called him out, he never denied a thing

He continued to be patient and I hated it

I would look through his phone

Hoping to catch him calling another girl by my name

I would yell anytime he left the house with hopes of driving him so crazy

That he would approach a girl with the same lips that kiss me goodbye

I would get an attitude when he told me how much he loved me

And hopes that maybe he wouldn’t love me

Anymore and I would finally be free

And now that I am alone, I realized that

The definition of free has changed

What’s free about checking your phone

When you won’t have a text?

Or a guy telling you “you’re beautiful

And if you ever need sex, can I be next?”

I mean what’s free about nobody being

There to defend you when you’re called out your name

And now that I’ve grown up, being free isn’t the same

So yes, ladies. Some guys will cheat

Some will lie and even disrespect you

But when you come across a good man

Don’t scare him, don’t share him and

When you’re given the truth

Don’t pray for a lie