Bloodstream

Remembering running through my yard like a wild stream

Just a little kid, blood flowing into my rosy cheeks

Now a river runs red from my knuckles into the sink

And there's a pale girl staring through the mirror at me

Maybe it's just a dream, wish I could go back to sleep

Hydrangeas blooming off the branches of park trees

It's a half-hearted calm, the way I've felt since I was thirteen

'Cause I may not feel it now, covered up the wounds with my long sleeves

But I know it's waiting there, swimming through my bloodstream

And it's gonna come for me, yeah it's gonna come for me

What did you have that I didn't?

And why am I so blue?

Someone's talking in my forehead

That says: I'll never be like you

Happiness is like a firefly on summer free evenings

Feel it slipping through my fingers

But I can't catch it in my hands

Catch it in my

Old memories, ribbons running down from my bare knees

I ran too fast, fell down on my face in the concrete

I guess the lesson's learned, I've barely left my room in the past week

And I've got my guard up trying all the time to stay clean

But I don't feel anything, I don't feel anything

What did you have that I didn't?

And why am I so fucked?

There's someone talking in my forehead

That says: I'll never be enough

And happiness is like a firefly on summer evenings

Feel it slipping through my fingers

But I can't catch it in my hands

Catch it in my