I Despise You

So I play along and I stand aside

And I turn away, try not to collide

With the strength to fear

Am I paranoid?

‘Cause it doesn’t feel like I’m yet destroyed

And I cannot move but I want to leave

Away from simple goals I can never achieve

Now you look to me

But what is your plan?

Is it good enough? What am I waiting for?

For gods? For escape?

Or just a way to guide me out?

Of this, of here?

Still I just want to kill them all

But all that my hell comprises

Benevolent compromises

And I really despise you

Bad enough not to fuck it up

What’s with your cliched surprises?

And where is your plain advice right now?

Oh, I really despise you

Bad enough not to fuck it up

And I watch my steps, creeping carefully

Make my frozen heart beat in your frequency

What’s the next move you’ll make?

I’m left in the dark

As if all the weight will become a spark

To ignite a flame that could burn them down

And no backup left when I turn around

It’s not all on me, but my mind is set

And it brought us here

To the place where it all commenced

No gods, no escape

And not a way to lead us out

Of this, of here

Now I just want to kill them all