Wish Myself Away

I feel like I’m high above the earth

And distance means that my voice remains unheard

And of all the smooth ways I could have chosen

Over the years when I’ve been frozen

I always picked the one

That would lead me further away

Whenever I tried to climb up the wall

To catch a clearer glimpse, I was not afraid to fall

And of all the right words I could have spoken

Over the years when I was broken

I always picked the ones

That would lead me further away

And if my life appears so small

It’s where I still belong

There’s not a thing I could recall

I’m not dividing right from wrong

And if I fall again

Then I’m inclined to stay right down

‘Cause in the end all that I want

Is to wish myself away

With every turmoil in my head

That I have lost, I never felt like I was dead

And of all the cool things I could have dreamt of

Over the years, I smelt your scent, I only dreamt of you

And it leads me further away

I don’t want to make this right

I don’t want to get inside

I never felt so left alone by anyone

I do not choose to fight

But stay out of the light

To reach out of the dark and try to find you there again