An Instant Death

I was born and I died

Happened right before your eyes and still you wanted something more than silence out of me

I was hiding

I've been lying sick in bed and trying

Now it's too late for perfection

You won't see my face again

Last night I was struck paralyzed

With blood all lost yet imprisoned inside

A voice in the choir blending in

What's the point of singing these old standards again?

Just keep circulating

I was touching my green lover when her roots broke from the stem

She's moving out her parents' house and never returning

So I asked her for a signal that she love me for sure and she spelled it out in letter blocks - placed it right there in my head

Then she kidnapped and reminded me of all the grief I had caused

Like time you can't stall now it's punishing us all

Midnight stung asleep in a web with a dream of escaping start new in the morning

Yellow leaves strung from trees bend and snap and conceive

Are you happy?

All these sights and sounds go unrecorded except a door crashing now in it's frame and an egg falling now in a dark filthy hallway

In a bleak helpless sky I saw the sunrise

And I watched that little baby raise his hand to throw a snowball singing "I must kill my father so that the sorrow can end"

And he crawled back in the water for a breath that he took and stretched 'cause every time you discover is like being born again

Looking through some color pictures I never felt so much joy as when I reach an understanding

(Hoo!)

(Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah)

(Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah)