Todeswunsch

Chill is dripping silently

I am drowning in myself

My hope has left me alone and barren

My grave - the only loving place

I hate my own loathsome smell

This stench and old-age and maledorous fear

How I hate each mortal cell that is rottingly

Existing deep inside of me

I cannot bear the sun, so I close me eyes

It is the perfect day to end this wretched life

Give me the reason to life so that I might laugh

At least I'll try in bitterness

Stop the waiting, the cruel waiting for nothing

All I want is to forget, finally

In sleep of death

I could die just like a christian

I could fade away in sleep

But I want to die for someone

For the one who waits for me

I long to be a sacrifice for the Lord

My Lord of the darkest side

Everyday is a perfect day, a perfect day for suicide!

Deliver me from the mindless crowd

When steps grow dumb behind my back

Save me from their poisoned locks

Harassing like daggers through my neck

Here, where it's like hell to exist

Only death can bring salvation

Please, release me from my chains that crucify me

To my eternal tribulation

Here, where even my own image is spitting

Where I have to hide my face

Where the distress seems so endlessly

In this god-forsaken place

In a former time, in a long forgotten place

When the masks and the faces had been identical twins.

As our sanctuaries were locked to hypocritical lies

Now befouled, they lay bare as they stalked in

So well gisguised

Suicide, sweet suicide

Deepest darkness veils my eyes

Suicide, sweet suicide

Jet-black darkness clouds my mind

Suicide, sweet suicide

Deepest darkness in my heart

Suicide, sweet suicide

My unclean soul, I know no light