Disappeared

I took some time to myself

To sort out all the things

That make me feel the way that I feel

Just this year I lost a basketball team to heaven

And I’m sure they’re shooting jumpers

With Jesus, Mary, and Joseph

And you said we wouldn’t notice it

If you had disappeared

But I swore I got a phone call

So that seemed pretty weird

So caught up in my own head

I took a walk down my street

Thought I’d find something to eat

But I headed back immediately

'Cause I’m pretty scared of guns

So go out and have some fun, let loose

And I’ll daydream of the noose that took my friend Sean’s life

And he thought we wouldn’t notice it

If he had disappeared

But I swore I got a phone call

So that seemed pretty weird

So caught up in my own head

I let my hair down today

And I took a shower for the first time in what felt like weeks

I felt my hair falling out

And I felt myself falling down

But that can’t seem to be the reason

I can’t sleep when I’m alone

It's getting better

And it’s hardly getting worse

It's hard to think about the things that make it all hurt

I found myself on the street

You swore that you would love me

And I swore I’d love you too

And you’ll barely even notice it when I disappear