The White Stairs

Tightly between my hands

Holding my face again

But this time I have to take action

Today, at last, I'll raise my head

Taking at least a bow

Before the crowd leaves

Without any clapping

I will disconnect

All the choices in my life

All the ones I've never had the courage to make

Were there for a reason

To prove me that I was different

That I could drop out of the queue slowing marching to the altar

Where every human being is labeled and standardized

I can still do something

Now that nothing remains for me

To set an example to the ones behind me

I have never been the one that people imitate

But tonight I'll finally take off my weight

Crawling in the desert of my imagination

On the way up the white stairs that divide me from the final station

Carry on!

You were my dream

A dream that came true

And now what I have is a handful of nothing

Clenching my fist I realize

I wanted more from my work (did I contend?)

Even more for my son (was it worth it?)

In a blink of an eye my time started to run out

Life's not so good as to forewarn us

Watching a building from the cold street that I am walking

I feel a magnetic attraction I cannot explain

I hear it say to me: Come up here, you'll find all the answers you want

I close my eyes and go where my heart is pulling strongly

And like a last wish, the destiny gives consent to it

Step after step I will climb the stairs until I'll see the shining moonlight

I'll be so near the short-sighted gods

They'll surely see me this time

I see you among the stars and

I'll reach you, I give my word

These white stairs divide me from the final station

Carry on!

Finally here, alone with myself

All I see an infinite stairway

Cry, shiver but don't look back now

I'm shining on my own and rising from the ashes of my demons gone

I see no turning back from this last decision I made tonight

I'm still up on the ledge and as I stand up I decide if

This journey led me to step forward or to step back

You

Who are you? Who's talking?

You didn't have the courage to take center stage at work

How do you know!

You didn't have the courage to give the world a child when you could have

But I couldn't have given him the life he deserved!

Shut up, liar! You didn't have the courage to change anne's mind!

She could have cured herself! She could have saved herself!"

The doctor said it was nearly impossible!

And now, you don't even have the courage to end it all!

Adam, adam? Wake up, it's late! You've got to go to work!

Anne!?

Yes?

What are you doing here?

What? Are you ok?

You, you were

I was what?

You were dead

Oh, you're so scared! Maybe you had a fitful sleep

I know you just want a big big breakfast prepared by your lovely anne, isn't it?

Yes, like in the old days

Old days? The last time was yesterday!

It's not important, I have you here again

Come here anne, come here my love

Adam? Adam, everything is ok! Hey, adam!