Chorus For Destruction

I set a course for destruction

when I chose to give myself away

and I'm afraid to change what I've already started

but I can't find another way

and so I sit and stare out the window

and wonder

will I ever amount to anything?

At least nowhere is somewhere

I just think too much

I'm bored out of my mind

there's nothing much to do here

I sit around all day and wish that I was somewhere else

and if I had a purpose

I don't know what I'd do with it

I'm so used to this

I feel the pressures of the answers to the questions in my head

I know they'll be there

how do I get back to my state of my mind

my appetite for life is gone

right now I don't care

I'm gonna give it away

it's ok