Time For Myself

I grew up with a lot of racism

And only Lord knows how much I hated them

For showing me hate and never had I been mean to them

Was just a little kid trying to get friends with them

They used to call me ugly names cause my skin was dark

I couldn't take the pain couldn't play in the park

But that didn't stop them they used to shout from far

Saying go back home cause a nigger you are

And at that time I didn't even know what that meant

I was probably six or seven year's old man

I told the teachers, never got help

All they said, you gotta know

Your different play with yourself

Man, I felt so alone

Never liked school couldn't wait to get home

But as the days passed I got through it all

But from time to time I break down

When I remember it all so

I just need a little time for myself

So I can, think bout my life no body else

I just need a little time for myself

So I can take it easy, do ya hear me

I had low self esteem

Always walked fast passed the mirror

Wouldn't see, or except myself

I didn't wanna be me

I would have done anything so I could be somebody else

I tried to fit in, but wouldn't get in

The only place I got in was the wrong click

I hung in but it wasn't good for me

I knew I wanted much more than to pocket pick

I was afraid how my life would end

No body wanted me around I wasn't good with friends

Probably cause I wasn't trying to let

Anybody see the real me and know how I felt

They'd look down on me

Say what I couldn't be

That's what my mind used to say slowly killing me

But days passed I got through it all

But sometimes I remember it all so

I just need a little time for myself

So I can, think bout my life no body else

I just need a little time for myself

I used to think that love last forever

But when my parents divorced I cried forever

I saw it coming but refused to understand it

Why it happened to us, I couldn't handle it

See I was used to having problems outside

Cause when I came home I had a reason to smile

But when that stopped, where was I to turn to

Didn't trust anybody else to talk to

I got weird it affected my life

Started with bad thoughts everyday was a fight

Kept everything inside, never talked about it

I put on my mask like everything's alright

Between the age of thirteen to nineteen

Drama all around and I got caught up in between, shit

But days passed I got through it all

But sometimes I remember it all so