Anti Hero

I keep my blinders on tonight

Won't know where we're goin', where we're goin'

The way her cold hands felt in mine

Reminds me I'm still broken, rips me open

She died before we made it to the hospital

I held my mother's body as she cried

And all my life she felt so tall and powerful

But now I was the rock which she relied

After all this time

What a fool I was to think we still had time

When he still had time

In all my life

What a fool I was to think we still had time

But we still have time

There's still time

I was just a child

Her love was like the ocean, like the ocean

Dark and infinite

Cold but ever flowin', still I'm frozen

Ignorance has always been a luxury

But you can't go back to blindness now with all you've seen

And who am I without a man to comfort me?

I guess after all these years, perhaps we'll finally see

In all this time

What a fool I was to think we still had time

When he still had time

In all my life

What a fool I was to think we still had time

There's still time

So don't you cry, don’t you cry, not for me

I ain't the Anti Hero of this story

I force a smile 'cause I'm that kind of sleaze

Just a ghost of the man who I wanted to be

So don't you cry, don’t you cry, not for me

Just let me lie, closed blinds though the morning

Upon a time, was a boy with a dream

Now I'm so fuckin' high, I think I'm starting to see

So don't you cry, don’t you cry, not for me

I'm just a boy who had too much to dream

No, I won't die, I'm just scared, I'm too weak

Still I flirt with that darkness, closing in on me

So don't you cry, don’t you cry, not for me

I lost it all, there ain't nothing to see

I'm in a hell I made special for me

Now I'm so lost, I think I'm starting to see

I think I’m starting to see

I think I’m starting to see, hmm

I think I’m starting to see