Clifton Springs

I was born old

I grew up but I got younger

I was torn, cold

Now I'm fine but there's this hunger

And a thirst for the days

Before I went and razed it all

To the ground

Got a job, found God

I did everything they told me

Spoiled the child, spared the rod

And found someone new to hold me

Though the love's not as real

As what I used to feel when it

All went wrong

She was young, not scared

She was everything I wanted

I was dumb, unprepared

Had no idea that I was haunted

By the ghosts of a life the night I hid the knives

And it all went wrong

It's an old wound, but it opened in a new way

In a rest room in a rest stop on the thruway

She calls up her parents

And admits with embarrassment

She was wrong

Speaking of your mother,

This is how it goes:

When the world gets you down

I suppose

You can fly away somewhere else

Of your own volition

Of your own accord

When you're sad, when you're angry

When you're bored,

You've got to do what's best for yourself

I awoke; you were gone

There was nothing left to hold on to

I was blind, I was wrong

I could find you if I want to

So I fly to the coast where

The boys you love most

Sing into your eyes

I was lost, now I'm found

I can see, but miss the blindness

Here's my cross, pound

It's your mouth, your kiss, your kindness

My stigmata's the regret for how

I could have let it all

Go so wrong

I'm going back to the place

Where they laughed in my face

When it all went

All went

All went wrong

Yes it all went

Isn't this what you wanted, darling?

All went...