Crush

I verify the moment has passed

false agency eroding

I see a wire and the method of a burning rite

I see a window and the glimmer of a fading light

I survive on the passion of lovers

I walk away so as to see another holy day

Don't tell me that it's all right

because it's insight

I want to know what I'm dying for all

All properties collapsed

communications from a time long past

I see them coming so I modulate a timewar

forcing calling on the elements I wait for

It's all crucial for an ex-commune

deny or atone but you know you're not immune

False evidence it's all right

try to remember it the first light

Oh, the mocking voices they call to me

alleviating everything I see

Head down, always too late for

revelation - something that i've prayed for

Head down, always too late for

nothing doing

but don't you know I tried

to ascend

dynamically evolve

provisional denial

exposing all the matrices within

There's something in the night

controlling all I feel

controlling what you see

Crushed first to last

the final answer is near

No saviour, no torture time

only flesh and a ruined mind

I see you standing with the wings of an angel

your ship is gone before you

I see a heaven I can never hope to reach for

it's all denial as I'm standing at the final door

Crushed beneath a drowning moment

I can't believe this is perfection

Crushed beneath it, a drowning moment

the license for paradise still never mine

Left in silence and abandoned now

Can't move on but I relate somehow

Living in oblivion never turned out but

infinty limits me reaching for the trinity

Process, process, never told why

the blackest silence something's failing

Now will come the final trial

all the pity and denial

don't you know that eternity is mine now?