Nothing

Cold has come to fill my heart

To numb my head and bones

Paralysed and torn apart

Thick and heavy feelings flow

Through my body turned to stone

Stiffened mind thoughts running slow

Dead man's image I can see

Had been killed so silently

Always been first to admit

But the very last to know

Didn't even know a bit

Couldn't see the foe

How could I have been so blind?

Says the man stabbed from behind

Every lie I had believed

Everything you misconceived

Every sign I didn't see

The mirror showing me

And what a long lying

What a wrong trying

And I knew I had to go

Like it was the only thing to know

And I know it was the only way

Not a single word left to say

So without a word I turned my back away

Silently I shut the door

To end the conflict stop the war

All that was it will be nothing

There is nothing left to say

Not a word not a single word to say

All that could have been it won't be

Here comes the final day

Nothing's like it was before

Just no connection anymore

And what a long dying

Such a wrong crying

And I knew I had to grow

Had to never let a weakness show

Had to push the memory far away

Had to try to find myself a better way

Every tear I didn't hide

A tiny little suicide

Every second by your side

A minute more of giving up my pride

Cold has filled my heart again

And turned my blood to stone

No sun so warm to warm you when

You're naked and alone

Pictures in my head again

That never will be shown

I'll return a stronger man

Stronger than the one you've known

All that was it will be nothing

There is nothing left to say

Not a word not a single word to say

Nothing there is nothing

Not a word no alert

You might change the way you dress

Change the color of your hair

You'll always change your mind I guess

Just like the clothes you wear

So if we ever meet again

A different time a different place

Don't forget I'll know by then

You will never change your ways

Nothing will be nothing

Not a word not a hurt

You might have to wear a coat

Weighing on you heavily

You might have to share the load

The load you put on me

There ain't no way now to disclaim

You'll always be the one to blame

So make a profit on the loss

Be a party take your share

Nail your conscience to the cross

To the cross you let me bear

Nothing will be nothing

Not a word to be heard

By the way I honestly

Thank you so much for teaching me

I've learned a lot you made me see

You are what I don't want to be